time... flown

I can't believe we're already three days into March! This is craziness. WHERE IS MY LIFE GOING!!!!

I'm actually still totally star stuck guys... I think I might turn into a creepy fan girl. Just say'n.
I WROTE ON KENNETH OPPEL'S WALL AND HE LIKED IT!!!!!
yup. and I'm planning on going to just about everyone of his workshops.
I'm totally excited, and OMG!!!! lol. Monika witnessed my crazed fan girl-ness when she came over :P haha.


So.... last night at choir we had the infamous SOLO AUDITIONS!
Before I was all like "I won't audition, I didn't like when she picked favourites before, and I don't want to be apart of that now".
I decided to ditch that philosophy and just audition for everything.
I LIKE to sing. And if she'll let me, than I'll just have to enjoy that.
I don't want to make other people feel bad, or not like me. But I just want to sing, and I feel like she's picked songs with solo's that favour what she thinks is 'my voice type'. Which is weird, cause I don't think anywhere else I've sang they've pegged me for a gospel wailer... I usually get 'pure soprano tone'... but she can call me what she likes, as long as I get to sing something.
I always the one content to stand in the back and support, but having a chance to shine is fun. And I'm just going to enjoy it while it lasts.

There were also solo auditions at the Phil this evening. I auditioned for it, but, whatever. I don't know if I really want it. I feel like, I can't be at all the rehearsals, but whatever. Just auditioning for stuff is good practice. The more you work on putting yourself out there, in a safe setting, the more comfortable you get. And it's just a good way of working on what you're good at, and making yourself better.
And trust you me, auditioning is definitely my WEAKEST point. You can put my stage in front of hundreds of people, and I can handle it. But put me in a room with 4 people(usually I even know ALL of them) and I freak out, lose my cool, act like a doofus, clam up, sound awful, and forget all the words in my monologue. So yeah... I need to work on that :S

My on-line courses have been going so-so. It doesn't really feel like I'm doing anything... but whatever. Getting a mark from someone other than my mother is really the ultimate goal here. Good marks and actually learning something are more of a second priority :P

I REALLY WANT TO WRITE FOR FUN!!!!
I have so many story ideas swirling through my head, I just need to get the guts to write them down somewhere.
I mean, if Kenneth Oppel got his first book published at 17, what's stopping me?
You don't need to be old to write something good... and you don't need to go to university for it either(look at Stephanie Myer... she sucks, and she got published :P)
Goal for my next year:
Write something good, and not be afraid to let other people read it.