...Left me with probably the greatest tan ever, nbd :D
And with 2 new bathingsuits (buy one get one free!) that I love.
And with a new closeness with my cousin Derek. We've been through a whole new step of life together now, and I hope we stay as close as we were this week.
And with a new friend, who I'll probably hardly see ever, sadly. This point actually makes me so upset :(
My Long Point holiday this year was... a lot different from before. I guess we're just getting older, K+D's kids are older, Derek brought a friend instead of a girlfriend, and so I hung out with them a lot more because I didn't bring a friend. So between all that, stuff was just... not what you'd expect from me.
Read the journal for the details I'd rather not spill online lol.
To be honest, thinking about it all now, I'm not sure how I feel about it. I didn't do anything wrong. And nothing has really changed. But somehow it has.
I miss you girls like crazy... and my safe, secure, predictable, hard work and routine filled life. I want to go back into my routine of hanging out and being happy with how things are turning out, accomplishing stuff and planning for the future. No matter how scary the future is, I can always fool myself into thinking it's infinitely far away. There's only so much living in the moment someone like me can take...
Monday, August 29, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
pondering the meaning of life
As I sit here bouncing franticly(like actally the laptop on my respective lap is jiggling uncontrollingly) I find many thoughts racing through my rapid fire adolecent mind.
Many truths are revealed to me at the bewitching hour that is now upon me.
When the wee hours of the nice take me in their grip my mind is no longer my own. It's like little beast enter through my nose and take over the rest of my being.
Ideas flit across the canvase of my mind like hurried butterflies caught on a wild wind that blows from the softness of the southern regions of our wonderful world. A place where only golden happiness exsists.
A world where creatures undiscovered roam and hid, never to be found our harmed by a human touch.
There are moments when the night just starts to deteriorate my senses and filters. Making me into a savage beast that roams the far reaches of the hidden mind.
Things are possible when the cricket sings its lonesome song outside my open widow while the hurried midnight drives zoom by in the dark that are not possible when the sky is bright and the sun illuminates every nook and cranie.
Sometimes I feel like I don't know why people do anything during the day. There is no reason for us to crave the day light any longer. As a speices we have created environments and instruments that allow us to function in a way unnatural and unknown to our anncestors. We essentially have created a new territory where we are no longer controlled by the lights in the sky. We have made it possible to see, grow, create and life in what would be darkness. There is almost no need for darkness now. We have eliminated darkness.
Which is scary. Since the difference between darkness and light was one of the first things established at the beginning of the world. Every creature, plant and environment relies on the ablitly to draw energy from the bright light of the day, and to rest and rejuvinate in the darkness and cool of the gentle night.
When the wild ponies that are lead by the reins of our minds are set loose, the drag intuition and logic with them, leaving a gaping hole for the wonders of the other world that we forget as we grow old to creep back in. As the years from childhood pass, the hole fights against itself to close, until we reach an age where it sags back and turns into ancient insanity. The second childhood. Personally I plan never to leave the first childhood behind entirely. Therefore my decline may seem to come sooner than most others, but really that's not the truth at all.
There you have it. 10 solid minutes of writing. None stop. No editing. No pre-reading before publishing for your lovely eyes to enjoy.
Let's just say this is the result of a late summer mist and possibly a does of caffiene....
As much as I would like to think that coffee has no effect on me. The numbers on my clock beg to differ. As do my wide eyes and frantic limbs.
On a note that actually makes sense and relates to my life.
I'm missing Jane Eyre, but I'm excited for this year.
And I can't wait to do another intensive in 2012.
I'm actually moving rooms. Most likely in September...
I am for sure for sure going to see Jesus Christ Superstar with my daddy on the 1st of September.
I'm sleeping over at Jessie's tomorrow.
I may not be going to long point at all :(
I want to hang out with all of you girls(at least the ones who are around right now).
My room is MUCH cleaner than it has been in quite awhile....
Today was fabulous.
I went to the nature area and took some pretty great pictures. it's been a while since I've spent some quality time with my camera.
Mom and I went thrift store shopping and I got a pretty decent array of items(including 2 pretty epic rings!)
It was 50% off day at Talize, which made everything that much more epic.
I want to write in the journals(also my own personal one...) but I feel like my writing would be illegible(more so than usual :P) so I'll stick to typing - though I might regret that when I do eventually read this back at somepoint... if ever :P
Even now I can hardly remember what I wrote about for 10minutes. Honestly. I was on autopilot. lol. I appologize. But I figure you girls can take it. Or we're at least close enough that I don't mind if you ignore it.
Hmmmmm. I think I've worn myself out. I might be feeling the crash from that ice capp(finallly!!!!!)
mom and I watched Yentle today. It's a Barbra Strisen movie. It was pretty good. until the ending which didn't make any sense :P
I liked the music though :)
I want to know what show singer's theatre is doing next year!
OMG. I need to sleep.
k thanks bye.
Many truths are revealed to me at the bewitching hour that is now upon me.
When the wee hours of the nice take me in their grip my mind is no longer my own. It's like little beast enter through my nose and take over the rest of my being.
Ideas flit across the canvase of my mind like hurried butterflies caught on a wild wind that blows from the softness of the southern regions of our wonderful world. A place where only golden happiness exsists.
A world where creatures undiscovered roam and hid, never to be found our harmed by a human touch.
There are moments when the night just starts to deteriorate my senses and filters. Making me into a savage beast that roams the far reaches of the hidden mind.
Things are possible when the cricket sings its lonesome song outside my open widow while the hurried midnight drives zoom by in the dark that are not possible when the sky is bright and the sun illuminates every nook and cranie.
Sometimes I feel like I don't know why people do anything during the day. There is no reason for us to crave the day light any longer. As a speices we have created environments and instruments that allow us to function in a way unnatural and unknown to our anncestors. We essentially have created a new territory where we are no longer controlled by the lights in the sky. We have made it possible to see, grow, create and life in what would be darkness. There is almost no need for darkness now. We have eliminated darkness.
Which is scary. Since the difference between darkness and light was one of the first things established at the beginning of the world. Every creature, plant and environment relies on the ablitly to draw energy from the bright light of the day, and to rest and rejuvinate in the darkness and cool of the gentle night.
When the wild ponies that are lead by the reins of our minds are set loose, the drag intuition and logic with them, leaving a gaping hole for the wonders of the other world that we forget as we grow old to creep back in. As the years from childhood pass, the hole fights against itself to close, until we reach an age where it sags back and turns into ancient insanity. The second childhood. Personally I plan never to leave the first childhood behind entirely. Therefore my decline may seem to come sooner than most others, but really that's not the truth at all.
There you have it. 10 solid minutes of writing. None stop. No editing. No pre-reading before publishing for your lovely eyes to enjoy.
Let's just say this is the result of a late summer mist and possibly a does of caffiene....
As much as I would like to think that coffee has no effect on me. The numbers on my clock beg to differ. As do my wide eyes and frantic limbs.
On a note that actually makes sense and relates to my life.
I'm missing Jane Eyre, but I'm excited for this year.
And I can't wait to do another intensive in 2012.
I'm actually moving rooms. Most likely in September...
I am for sure for sure going to see Jesus Christ Superstar with my daddy on the 1st of September.
I'm sleeping over at Jessie's tomorrow.
I may not be going to long point at all :(
I want to hang out with all of you girls(at least the ones who are around right now).
My room is MUCH cleaner than it has been in quite awhile....
Today was fabulous.
I went to the nature area and took some pretty great pictures. it's been a while since I've spent some quality time with my camera.
Mom and I went thrift store shopping and I got a pretty decent array of items(including 2 pretty epic rings!)
It was 50% off day at Talize, which made everything that much more epic.
I want to write in the journals(also my own personal one...) but I feel like my writing would be illegible(more so than usual :P) so I'll stick to typing - though I might regret that when I do eventually read this back at somepoint... if ever :P
Even now I can hardly remember what I wrote about for 10minutes. Honestly. I was on autopilot. lol. I appologize. But I figure you girls can take it. Or we're at least close enough that I don't mind if you ignore it.
Hmmmmm. I think I've worn myself out. I might be feeling the crash from that ice capp(finallly!!!!!)
mom and I watched Yentle today. It's a Barbra Strisen movie. It was pretty good. until the ending which didn't make any sense :P
I liked the music though :)
I want to know what show singer's theatre is doing next year!
OMG. I need to sleep.
k thanks bye.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Closing
Jane Eyre closes today.
I has been a fabulous experience.
The show has touched my life is so many ways.
The story has made me think about things I hadn't for a while. Make something with a group of people like this is magic. It was a bit like a homecoming for me. I hadn't realized just how much I had missed being in intensives, until this.
I love the cast. Each person has their own distinct personality. We are all so different, and yet it works.
This will be a show that will stay in my heart forever.
Thank you girls for coming and supporting. I love you all.
I has been a fabulous experience.
The show has touched my life is so many ways.
The story has made me think about things I hadn't for a while. Make something with a group of people like this is magic. It was a bit like a homecoming for me. I hadn't realized just how much I had missed being in intensives, until this.
I love the cast. Each person has their own distinct personality. We are all so different, and yet it works.
This will be a show that will stay in my heart forever.
Thank you girls for coming and supporting. I love you all.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Opening Night!
It's here!!!!!
I actually can't believe it. We moved into the theatre yesterday. And this afternoon we do it with lights, and then this evening with an audience!
I love this show soooo much.
Its amazing and stunning and there are moments when it takes my breath away.
I'm so happy that you will all be able to see it!
I actually can't believe it. We moved into the theatre yesterday. And this afternoon we do it with lights, and then this evening with an audience!
I love this show soooo much.
Its amazing and stunning and there are moments when it takes my breath away.
I'm so happy that you will all be able to see it!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
just stuff
I LOVE MY GOODLIFE MEMBERSHIP. Like so much. Guys you don't understand how much I LOVE to work out. Ahhhhh. I love that feeling after you're done doing abs and you can't breath for a second, and then you feel your muscles un-tense finally but they're still shake-y. I love the way my muscles feel so TIRED after. But good too. I feel good all over! And I love stretching muscles that actually NEED to be stretched haha. I JUST LOVE IT!
Too bad it costs money if I want to keep going after September starts :(
Also, I've decided to write up lesson plans and a program base for my coaching this year. A few of those girls are ready to be pushed a little harder, and I want to have some kind of system in place to get them to where they should be. If Dan makes a system (like he always say he will) then I'll use that obviously. But since that never seems to happen... I'm making my own. It's just good to have a plan :)
I want to get Jordan, Jen, Libby and Krista into the best shape possible. Love those kids <3
LONG POINT IN THREE SLEEPS!
I'm more than a little excited :P
Too bad it costs money if I want to keep going after September starts :(
Also, I've decided to write up lesson plans and a program base for my coaching this year. A few of those girls are ready to be pushed a little harder, and I want to have some kind of system in place to get them to where they should be. If Dan makes a system (like he always say he will) then I'll use that obviously. But since that never seems to happen... I'm making my own. It's just good to have a plan :)
I want to get Jordan, Jen, Libby and Krista into the best shape possible. Love those kids <3
LONG POINT IN THREE SLEEPS!
I'm more than a little excited :P
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
whiplash
I don't understand how a day can go from fabulous and fun, to my crying on the car ride home.
Wow. I don't know. But I'm not impressed at all :(
Basically, I'm just terrified for my exam now. No big deal.
Wow. I don't know. But I'm not impressed at all :(
Basically, I'm just terrified for my exam now. No big deal.
Friday, August 5, 2011
best week ever
This week has been amazing!
As of tomorrow I will have a 7 day streak of seeing at least one of you girls every day!
And if Kaya's red party is for sure on Monday, I'll be up to 8 in a row <3
Currently babysitting Jadon... he's watching a movie, but I should be putting him to sleep soon.
SOOOOO STOKED FOR SAVANNAH'S PARTY!!!
And doing Katlin's hair of course.
And dying Mo's and mine :D
This morning I went to Jessie's house to visit for a bit.
We were going to go out for lunch... but then we realized that we are both broke. sooo, we invented lol. It was pretty good for just finding random stuff in her kitchen :)
As of tomorrow I will have a 7 day streak of seeing at least one of you girls every day!
And if Kaya's red party is for sure on Monday, I'll be up to 8 in a row <3
Currently babysitting Jadon... he's watching a movie, but I should be putting him to sleep soon.
SOOOOO STOKED FOR SAVANNAH'S PARTY!!!
And doing Katlin's hair of course.
And dying Mo's and mine :D
This morning I went to Jessie's house to visit for a bit.
We were going to go out for lunch... but then we realized that we are both broke. sooo, we invented lol. It was pretty good for just finding random stuff in her kitchen :)
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
ten hour work days...
Let me just say, I'm incredibly jealous that you guys are hanging out every day and I have to work :( Yesterday I was there for ten hours, but only paid for seven of them. Yay for super long lunch breaks... Not.
Today I'm working one to three, but going in at 11:30 because Alex and I are going out during that super long lunch. Which is fine lol, I don't mind that at all. But it's still one less hour I can spend with you
Also, on top of all the work stuff and drivers training that I can't get out of, my mom is being so frustrating about family stuff. I know she only gets certain holidays, but I don't see why I have to be home during them if we don't actually DO anything. Like if she wants to do family holidays, thats all good with me. But so far she just wants me HOME all day Sunday and Monday. With no plans whatsoever. Yippee...
I'm feeling majorly sistarly deprived!
Today I'm working one to three, but going in at 11:30 because Alex and I are going out during that super long lunch. Which is fine lol, I don't mind that at all. But it's still one less hour I can spend with you
Also, on top of all the work stuff and drivers training that I can't get out of, my mom is being so frustrating about family stuff. I know she only gets certain holidays, but I don't see why I have to be home during them if we don't actually DO anything. Like if she wants to do family holidays, thats all good with me. But so far she just wants me HOME all day Sunday and Monday. With no plans whatsoever. Yippee...
I'm feeling majorly sistarly deprived!
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