CHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMAS(and the wonderful eve there of)

Basically Christmas/Christmas eve was wonderful :D
I love love love this time of year!

I'm sooo excited to see you girls(minus Mosby :P) today!!! Yay for making sushi and stuff!

I'm so excited for new years and the wedding!!!! whooo I love weddings!

K.
I really have nothing else to say.
So yeah.

Hark How the Bells!

Christmas is SOOOOOO close :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

yayayay.

Jurors is over... which is sad, but funily enough, I don't feel sad yet.
Obviously it feels weird not seeing my fellow Jurors everyday, but it honestly doesn't feel like it's over.
We still have cast parties to look forward to, and hopefully friendships that we will keep :)

I throughly enjoyed skating with the jurors before shows, making homeschooled jokes and sharing our life stories.
It was an amazing weekend.
Bleeding everywhere wasn't really my favourite thing to do... but whatever. It was an experience, and worth it. My finger still hurts A LOT! Like yeah. It's FINALLY starting to scab... so it's like tight and painful. But whatever. If it leaves a scar, it'll have a pretty epic memory attached.

I'm having lots of fun getting ready for christmas :) I love this time of year!!!!!!!!

I finally started my own personal journal again, I've pulled out my guitar and have been working on writing a couple tunes here and there.
I'm also reading more again, and I've read the play that synchro is doing in the spring, and I think I really want to be a part of it. It's just a funny piece of really random fluff, but I think it would be fun! :D

ALSO, bought some new pants, which is nice because I like pants, and it has been a while.

ALSO I went out with a group of teen homeschoolers Monday evening, and made a couple new friends.
There are a few girls my age, and I really connected with one of them! She likes to write and we ate icecream together at the mall :)

Yay.
I am SO excited for the cast parties!!!!! Like did I mention HOW excited I am? SO EXCITED!!!!

carols anyone?

I really really badly want to sing christmas carols. A whole whack of them. And drink tea and play apples to apples and laugh and give someone a christmas hug and dress up in red and green and watch a good oldy.

My room is clean, I just finished, and the stove is working again and we have candles on our table, so now we just need to find a time when you loverlies can pop in :)

And I love Ella Fitzgerald. Random, but oh so true. I just found an amazing set of songs that she sings with Frank Sinatra...I think that she's one of the few who can match his voice "eye-to-eye" (haha voice to voice sounded too cheesy :P) and they just sound soooo beautiful together! The one song has 38 000 or so "listens" on youtube.

I plan to make it 40 000 over the next few days. I love Ella! I don't think any of the other "greats" seem to enjoy the music so purely for what it is. No big show or extravagant moves or speeches...just the music and Ella.

Tomorrow I am making christmas cards. Actually hopefully not just christmas cards. I plan to make so many cards no one would think I am anything but a homeschooler. I am going to card-it-out in my lil' ol' room until all my cravings to make them are satisfied.

Cards are perfect; they're just little, easily-gifted bits of art with a few words to push the message in the right direction. And I absolutely love getting them, so hopefully all those poor souls who are destined to be carded by me feel the same way :P

That goes for you too.

I'm ready for carols, I'm ready to card everyone I know, I'm ready to bake cookies, I'm ready to watch movies, I'm ready to build a long-overdue snowman, I'm ready to cozy up with my cat and a book and read it cover to cover, I'm ready to wear red earrings and green socks, I'm ready to listen for the snowflakes that fall so stealthily, I'm ready to have fun...so I think Christmas can just about start.

Never anyone mind about telling me anything, cause the bells have started in my head and they'll be ringing madly without pause until I have had a very good dose of Christmas <3 Bring on the 40+ list of Christmas movies!

pre-Christmas-ness

Hey Lovelies <3
It's been a while since I've blogged lol. I don't even know where to start...

Umm...kay. So. My part for Sears is stellar. Exactly what I wanted. And acting opposite the most talented and cutest guy in the school isn't half bad either :P
Also, I can't wait to say "FUCKING CUCUMBER SANDWHICHES" onstage lol.
Apparently our play is the only "R-rated" one... We're the ONLY group who swears and has mature content...awk lol.

Last night was perfect. <3
I picked up Gavin from his voice lesson at 4:30, and then we went for sushi at Ye's so that we'd be close to city hall for 12 Angry Jurors. The food was awesome like always, especially the miso soup lol. It was nice to catch up and share all the vegetarian stuff that I never think to order lol. Then we walked to city hall and walked in circles awkwardly because we were still super early and Saj wouldn't let us sit down....haha. So ya. The actual play itself was AWESOME. Congrats again Rachel. I'm super motivated for Sears now, and I LOVED the storyline SO much. Like...wow...awesome choice of play. I wish I could come see it again tonight! Lol. THEN after Rachel stopped bleeding all over the place we went for magic fries :D That was fun too, and afterwards the snow was drifting down and I was with 2 people I absolutely adore and it suddenly started to finally feel like Christmas time <3
I've been in a great mood since then lol. I feel all bubbly and happy :)

Also, Gavin sent me the MP3 links for KW Glee, which hasn't been bad for my mood either :P
I can't get enough of boys singing lol.

so angry, all the time

Jurors is going SO WELL!!!!
We've finally passed our speedbumps and now the whole cast is having a blast.
We are all super close now(this may have to do with the whole shared change room thing... yeah 13 teenagers all naked in City Hall in one room. Oh co-ed change rooms... how you bring people together :S)

I was SO happy to see Maya and Mosby yesterday <3 I love you girls :D
Hve fun being away from me Mo... and Maya, have fun being near me!!!!!!!

I'm excited for Katlin to see it tonight!!! (I'll actually get to say my iconic line!!!! I WILL NOT let someone skip over it... GRRRR!!!!!)

I'm loving my life.
Tomorrow I have a show and then I get to go to an ugly christmas sweater party for my friend's birthday :D SO HAPPY!!!!!

good thing Santa has "rain" deer :P

is anybody else soaking wet? haha, I am. And I'm sitting in the library almost steaming cause it's HOT in here. whew *

holy moly moly holy Charles Dickens was EPIC!!! hahaha, I haven't enjoyed something so much in forever :D You were splendid Rachel - you totally belong with those other incredible actors :) I loved how the choral parts were interwoven throughout the piece, it was so lovely. Boy, I think that must be the true test of acting abilities, to act without a set or costumes etc. It was amazing how strongly the audience connected with the performers. I loved being able to picture my own images during the reading, and the characters onstage provided the perfect basis for each audience member's imagination to run wild. <3 <3 <3

awww and I got to talk to Nika!! I haven't seen her in...ummm...6 years maybe? yeah. She's so awesome!! I had a great time catching up with her and we had some laughs about homeschooling XP Homeschooling rocks, naturally.

Weeeellll, this past week has been soooo great! Last Saturday I got to go see the National Ballet's premiere of a new production of Romeo and Juliet!!! I went with my parents and it was so uplifting to be back in the theatre...it was a gorgeous production, and I completely lost myself in it. I love it when that happens :)

Then this past Thursday I was at NBS to see their Parent's Night performance. They performed a choreography that I'd created this summer! Everybody looked so beautiful, they've all been working so hard and there's no feeling that matches the one when you're finally onstage. SOOOO fun to see them afterwards too - haha, my mom went to check out the new "Loblaws" a few streets away. Apparently it is fantastic! You can barely recall that it is a grocery store what with all of the artwork and great architecture and stuff. We should go X) And I want to come see you Mo!!! I wanted to come on Thursday, but it got kinda late and I know exams are coming. I'm sending you a huuuuge hug through the special hug lines :D

Yoga with Savannah yesterday was great too! I missed that feeling so much. I want to go super often over Christmas. And I have four pomegranates right now (badly coordinated shopping by me and my parents :P) so loads of antioxidants are ready to combat that heat!

I hope we'll see each other again real soon, I miss you girlies!

Ebenezzer!

Hey Lovlies!

These past few days have been so much fun :)
I'm loving being in Charles Dickens.
I'm sharing the stage with some of the finest actors in our region, and all of the country. It's a good feeling.

The fact that the two children who are at my lecturn are terrors is a bit of a down side... I mean they are cute and nice and whatever, but they FIDGET LIT CRAZY!!!! They do not stand still. Last night was better than the first night... but still pretty bad.
The boy was pulling the cast on his arm a part, ON STAGE! And just like dropping pieces of it every where. I don't even...
Whatever. They're kids. It's fine. Just frustrating and funny.

I'm singing at the Chritkindle Market this morning :) I'm excited. I love my choir.

And once again, I have to appoligize for not blogging

I can't believe it's been so long since I last saw you all! My life has been even more hectic than it usually is and I'm barely keeping up with it. Dance is fairly good right now.

Tonight I finished my trio and tomorrow I'm going to finish my contemporary solo for sure cause I only have like eight counts left! I've also missed two rehearsals which is fairly impressive that I can still be that far along!

Some of the groups have been kind of frustrating cause a lot of people in way less numbers who are in younger grades (i.e. less homework/ easier courses) don't bother to remember their choreo, and I know I wasn't as good when I was younger but its still frustrating. This kind of hit me last night cause I had to sit out (*super angry*) because something in my hips got out of wack, if you will, and was pinching a nerve in my hip. a.k.a not fun. Like everything was such a mess and it was like really? Come on guys. Oh well you can only do what you can do.

I'm so happy I currently have a 90 average which makes me happy! It helps that I have a 95 in physics.... can you say nerd? Well obviously not nearly as nerdy as Katlin but still. Biology is my worst mark which kind of makes me sad. I only have an 87 right now and tomorrow I have my Kingdom unit test tomorrow and it's so, so, many long complicated names and stuff which is really hard so hopefully I can do okay enough on it so it doesn't affect my mark too much. So many kids are going to bom it cause their stupid and don't study.

Biggest new change in my life? What I eat. I know it sounds weird but I feel AMAZING! It's from these two books "The Thrive Diet" and another one that I don't remember the name of, but their both by this guy Brendan Braiser (I think that's how you spell it.. Maybe?) and the restaurant, Thrive, that we went to for my birthday, well its based off of the research that he's done! It's all vegan (I'm not going strictly vegan don't worry)! The thing is, some people think that you can't be vegan and super athletic, but this guy was a professional triathlete and he was strictly vegan! The other thing is that it is so, so, so good for you, and to top it taste pretty delicious too! I haven't really eaten animal products except for butter on vegan bread, ye's sushi, and ice cream cake ( I know that's sort of a lot but it was my friend Nat's birthday so what can I say?) but like on an every day basis I don't have any animal products in my diet and I actually feel so good like I can't even describe it! I have so much more energy, I can actually get up in the morning, I don't really crave sugar, like its actually ridiculous! I would highly recommend you get/look at his books (I don't think my mom would be willing to lend them cause they have all the recipes in them unfortunately) but yeah like it's only been like a week and a half but I already feel so much better than I did before!

OK now I'm going to stop procrastinating and go study some more.... fun stuff right?

Anyways I love you girls soooo much and don't ever forget it!! <3
P.S. I really will try to blog more!<3

The Sun'll Come Out

Taja's been listening to Annie songs this morning, Some of the kids in CLC(read: the cute little girls) are doing a few songs for the Chirstmas show thing.
One of the songs is A Hard Knock Life from Annie. This is just bringing back memories of how much I wanted to be an orphan in Annie. Maybe this is one of the places my love for musicals started :)
I'm really happy with my voice right now.
It is just nicely falling into place. I've been singing some songs with my voice teacher that I had been singing before(with a different teacher...) and it is actually amazing and shocking how different they sound and feel! I can sing all of them now with out feeling tired or strained after, which didn't happen before. I don't ever hurt after lessons or practicing, and it feels so good!

NaNoWriMo is almost over :S
I'm doing alright, I have some writting to do today.
Tomorrow is going to be crazy, not as crazy as last weekend but still crazy.

Last weekend I went to see Gavin's show with Katlin and Taja in the afternoon. In the evening I went to see A Midsummer Night's Dream at the university - it was SO amazing. I was... amazing and excited and yeah :) -then I went straight to V's house for a sleepover - we ready Grimm's Fairytales(lol Mo, she had the book sitting on her desk, and I just had to read them for her :P), watched Rent, ate apples and chocolate until 2 in the morning.
Then I got up at 8 to go to chruch and sing and play my flute. We had a potluck there, and then I went straight to YET, and then I got a ride from my friend to Juror's  and didn't get home until 10 that evening.
So I was out of the house from 6:30pm Saturday to 10pm Sunday. I was SO tired by the end of that.
This weekend I'm just staying at the studio from 1-10pm with out leaving :P I might slip out to get dairy queen during my hour break... or I might sleep on the couch :P
We'll see.

interview practice

I'm eating peanut butter m&ms and it reminds me of movies with all the people I love <3 (aka YOU.)

Sooooo I've been practicing like mad for my interview this Saturday... Here's a few of my answers:

Who is an example of a great leader?
A leader who I've always looked up to is Kyle Shewfelt. He was a Canadian Olympic gymnast, and I got to meet him when I was 13. He was so positive and encouraging, and you could see how much he loved the sport. Since retiring from gymnastics, he has donated huge amounts of money to Right to Play, and holds gymnastics competitions that promote how much fun gymnastics can be. He is a wonderful role model for any athlete, and he reminds me why I fell in love with gymnastics in the first place.

Why did you quit gymnastics?
Deciding to retire from gymnastics was one of the most difficult decisions I've ever made. I grew up in the gym, and I've always been extremely passionate about it. However, when I was 16 I realised that I was ready to move into a more mature aspect of the sport. I had a lot of other interests to explore, and I started coaching the pre-competitive program. I absolutely love my job now, and I've been able to get a lot more involved in school as well. I'm happy with the decision I made, because I left my training, but I took so many lessons and great memories with me, and now I get to share them with the new generation of gymnasts.

Why are you applying to science programs?
My love of science started when I was homeschooled. I read everything I could get my hands on, and YES magazine was one of my favourites. I loved knowing how things worked, and discovering how scientists were overcoming issues that seemed impossible only a few years ago. When I got to high school, an enrichment program I went to sparked my interest for the human body. We got to disect pig vertebraes, and I could really see myself working in a lab like that. I also loved my grade 12 physics class because of the problem based learning approach. I'm so excited about the entire world of science!

Hamlet... why?

Hey Ladies,

 So I should be working on my novel(I PASSED 26K LAST NIGHT!!!!) or working on my English assignment(its still that stupid group project... but I think it's getting less stupid), but I'm obviously not.

Exciting news.
Jane Eyre and Aida were both nominated for BroadwayWorld Toronto People's Choice Awards.
If you could go vote for us, that would make me so happy :D
http://toronto.broadwayworld.com/vote2011region.cfm?region=Toronto

There are a lot of categories... but PLEASE!
Both are currently in first place, but voting is open until Decemeber... so we need to work to keep it there!!
It would be SO cool to win :D

Well, I need to go. I'm 'meeting' with my group members soon... so I should probably have something to show them :S

We Day Waterloo!

The last 2 days have been filled with motivation, inspiration and passion to make a change :D

To be totally honest I wasn't as WOWED with We Day this year... Somehow the energy wasn't quite there like last year :S BUT I did really enjoy hearing Romeo Dallaire speak, and Marc and Craig's final speech was really awesome. I wish it was posted somewhere so I could quote it properly, but I'm gonna try my best without it lol...

"Impossible is an illusion.
Never is a coward.
Unrealistic is a liar."

And there was more but I forget them lol. But they did a really, REALLY good job.
One thing that pissed me off though was how the guy speaking about Aboriginal issues COMPLETELY messed up his speech. They had the words on screens as a guide for the speakers, but his messed up and played the same part twice, AND HE READ IT TWICE to us. Like uhhh nice memorizing, you put a lot of effort into this... Then he didn't know what to do so he just left the stage, like "k bye guys!!!" which is SO stupid. Like, you're supposed to be an expert, improvise or something! Make some BS up for us!

But other than that, I really liked Naomi Tutu's speech. She was very warm and welcoming, and had this HUGE presence that made a big impact on everyone. She was like a super sweet, wise and AWESOME grandma. I liked how she reinforced what a gift each individual one of us is. The whole day is about the power of WE, but she also reminded us that EVERYONE is unique and brings something special to the world. <3

Romeo Dallaire was just incredible. Although I wish we got more of him lol. He told a story about how he was on a peace mission, trying to get to the leaders to work something out... And he was stopped by a baricade of child soldiers. He opened the door of his truck, and a little boy had a huge gun in his face. He was shaking and terrified, and Romeo could see the decision he was trying to make: Do I blow this guy's head off, or just accept the chocolate bar he's offering me?
Then Romeo went to on tell us how he realised that looking in that boy's eyes, he saw his own son, and realised that he could see EVERY boy. Because that's all they are. Boys.
I wish we got another couple of hours to listen to the stories he probably has to tell. That's what I want to hear more of...

Spencer West also had a funny story about how the first time he went to Africa, one little girl said to him, (about the loss of his legs) "I didn't know stuff like this happened to white people too."

I guess when I think about it there was SO much incredible stuff that I took from today. It just takes a while for it to all sink in. So overwhelming lol.
The first words my brother says when he gets home: "We Day was awesome!"
So overjoyed that I'm part of such a powerful movement <3

list style update

1. I might being going to a dinner to meet Marc and Craig Keilburger! How awesome can life get :D
2. WE DAY is next week. My friends are the bestest and I'm actually so excited for it <3<3<3
3. Schoolwork is building up :( Bio unit project and test, quiz in calculus and bio, Hamlet quiz... unit test in calculus.. Plus I'm missing a day next week for We Day. Busybusybusy.
4. If you haven't already, listen to "Home" - Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. The name of the band alone should convince you it's awesome :P But apart from that, its pretty much perfection and I'm in love. Yay replay button :D :P
5. Grad club is being so frustrating. BUT I'm looking forward to making decorations with Jen this weekend :)
6. I finally made up my mind to audition for Sears :) I might have to cut down on some other stuff and do homework through lunch a few days a week, but I really want this. I want to be part of a show and be up on stage and get that adrenaline rush and do something over and over and over until I know it's perfect.
7. I miss climbing... I haven't been since Thanksgiving :'(
8. I also haven't been to Goodlife nearly enough... Oops lol. Life has been so busy...
9. I'm rambling now because I don't want to study for bio...
10. Reading Hamlet is making me realise how much I enjoy it lol. I miss Monday group a lot though. But I'm looking forward to reading crazy Ophelia :P
11. Time to look for monologues!

NaNoWriMo

Hey lovelies,

soooo, seeing you girls was amazing :) I enjoy how happy you all make me!

Today is basically set aside for Math(assignment due.... BUT I HAVE STARTED WORKING ON IT!!!!!) and NaNo-ing.
I didn't think I'd get put my word count for yesterday... but just before midnight I hit the 11,687 mark. WOOOOO FOR BEING ON TRACK!
Hahahahaha, now I just need at least 1667 more words before I turn off the light tonight, and I'll be good. I can get out at least 1,000 words out in 1 hour, if I set my mind to it.
SO YAYAYAY!

I'm also supposed to have all my lines memorised for tomorrow night... that needs to happen too.
Like I KNOW them all, but they are all just so random that I don't know when I say them :S
I'll have to work on that.
Hopefully everyone else has buckled down and knows their lines too.

Last night Messiah rehearsal was good!!! We worked on the classic "for unto us a child is born" movement, which I greatly enjoyed. This is just such a cool experience!

OH! I have a 'group project' to do for my on-line class. It's due next week, and here's hoping that my group is not a dud :P

THE CNTOWER IS BLUE& GOLD FOR ONCE!!!!!

Ya. I pretty much freaked out for a 10 minute walk with pingping at that realization and kept crossing the street so i could get a particulary amazing view of it... :P
I've been freaking busy!
Funny Katlin... i just got home from swimming in the pool you mentioned ;P
I took advantage of every facility i possibly could tonight, it was hilarious lol. I did lane swimming (with goggles and a darn cute bathing cap! ;) )had a shower (i brought my stuff from home) and went in the sauna... delightful.... and blow dried my hair under these funny motion sensored dryers-- i was a bit short for them so i had to jump every so often haha.... and best of all.... THIS SWIMSUIT DRYER!!! it's a small metal box that u put ur suit in, push the lid down, it makes a bunch of noise... and BAM your swimmingsuit is officiall dry.
I found out that there's free massages every monday from 1-3 in this one amazing u of t building that is pretty much my favourite thingy so far! So my new monday agenda is: Class, math aid center, and then a massage! ahahahahahaha
I went to buy wool today to make a soooffffttt scarf :)
I've been frantic with schoolwork, but i kinda really love it.
I passed my calc midterm!! i had my doubts... but i did!!! mind you... not by much at all ahahahaha, oh well, it's the only class im not doing very well in..:P and i can live with that reality xD In fact, im sadly quite proud of my achievements so far for the class :P
time to get crackalackin, hooray for home this weekend! (can u believe im almost done a semester?!! 3 weeks until exams... that's somewhat saddening for me lol
<3
Mo

ANOTHER busy weekend

This Saturday I'm going to check out U of W... But both of my parents aren't around, so ya... I'm really hoping I can tag along with Erin haha.
Then hopefully I'll get a much needed dose of you girls <3
And write an essay, and help my brother with his Sears audition! Oh, and make lesson plans... Why are there so many things to do :S

I feel 100x better now that my calculus test is done, but we'll see how long that feeling lasts lol. I've felt so stressed about it ever since I realised how much my mark needs to go up for my university applications... :S
I wanna go to U of T so badly.

I'm also feeling in desperate need of a movie night. Or going to the movies. Preferably the Frederick Twin, with a fork, pickles and peanut butter M&Ms :P And I want to go semi dress shopping! Even though I don't need a dress...

Semi is coming up so fast! I need to make decorations with Jen, and figure out who I'm getting ready with :S Why do I suddenly have too many friends :P But ya, whatever. I'm actually SO excited. And I know that no matter what I'll have a blast :D

Anyways... Off to coaching.

Hey Ladies

So here's a quick update on my life:

-I'm sick. Yuck.
-My room is a disaster area. It's kinda frightening. I mean, I know I did have a floor at some point...
-NaNoWriMo is happening. I'm mostly on track. But it's only day 3, so that doesn't mean anything.
-I have an English assignment due tomorrow.... haven't started that.
-I feel like crap(see first point...)

Yup. That is my life right now.

Other than that I've had my first Messiah rehearsal. Exciting stuff.
I'm still rehearsing, singing and stuff.
I'm ushering for a show on Saturday. I was supposed to do that today. But that was cancelled.Probably a good thing, cause I am in no position to hand out programs coated in my germs to unsuspecting healthy people.
Other than that.... thing are just happening.

Yay.
I get to see MO this weekend!
Is Saturday evening still a go for you girls(minus Savannah)?
ALSO I am actually free on Sunday after 4.... so yeah. If we want to do something then...

Spicy chickpeas!

hahaha, I am sooo distracted right now. My mom is cooking a spicy chickpea dish that is making the whoooole house smell amazing...and I can't think about anything else. So I thought I should probably get blogging :P
It was super nice to see mo and didi this weekend :) And I read the article in the newspaper about the Phil's concert - quite the raving review! It was fun to read about the different songs and epic moments :) I'm SOOOO happy for you Rachel <3 That choir is dang lucky to have you btw ;)
ahaha, and babysitting the trio was majorly cute :) Kate, it was so sweet, the kids kept telling me what you do with them when you're over, and basically I tried to be the "Kate" for the night :P And they played "house," and Micah was the dad named "Ram" and Taja and I were sisters - my name was "Katlin!!" lol sooooo funny! You're totally number one in their babysitting books ;)
Halloween was funny; pretty much consisted of my bro racing to the door in his "morph" suit (all black, even covers his face...yes, he can still see :P) to surprise the little kids as they trick-or-treated. I'm pretty sure that was the highlight of the evening for him :P Brothers rock...
I`m having such a hard time keeping my eyes open....ahhh...must...get...to...work.
Maybe I`ll make some tea first :P
Next week I have midterms again!?! crazy stuff...it's honestly just a few weeks since the last ones...and then assignments are due and then exams! CRAAAZY how fast things go.
I hope we'll get to see each other soon :) I miss you girlies

toronto+more halloween

U of T visit with my dad yesterday! It was awesome:)

Reasons I think that place is for me:
1. They have a rock climbing team.
2. Engineering Science would be hard, but that program is one of U of T's specialties, and I can pretty much do whatever I want for grad school after that (MIT, Cambridge, etc.) so I think it would be rewarding and worth it in the end. Plus, its for students who want a challenge... I've been challenging myself for the last ten years lol. I've got this:)
3. The residences seem nice, although I'm biased bc Caitlin was my tour guide :P
4. The residence food was AWESOME! Yay stir-fried veggies and hummus wraps, I could totally live off that haha.
5. The athletic facility was GORGEOUS, and it includes a gymnastics room :P And a big beautiful pool, right across the street from the residence I want.
6. Campus is amazing. I love the architecture SO much.
7. I could see MO more!!!! <3

Then when I got home it was Halloween party time :D Alex was sooooo cute, he decorated his basement SO intensely with a fog machine and red tinted lights and spider webs, and we played "pass the gourd" and bobbed for apples lol. And there was two tables full of awesome food, so that was pretty great too :P
Hard to believe that a year ago, looking around that room I wouldn't have known any of the people there. And a month ago I still wouldn't have known around half of them. Things change so fast, but I love it :)
My mom was so cute lol.
Mom: "Are you bringing any candy?"
Me: "Nope."
Mom: "Oh... Just your vodka bottle?;)"
Me: "Awks... No... Its Alex and Meagan mom..."
Mom: "This is why I love your friends."
I laughed. Out loud. Lol.

Halloween!

Halloween Dance was last night at school... Good times :)
I sorta ditched the whole werewolf idea when I found this AWESOME dress at Talize, and boots to match... So I was a super villain instead :P And can I just say... I looked pretty great ;)
This morning we were talking about the best costumes, and right at the top of the list John said he really liked my costume :D I feel like that was the best compliment I could have gotten :):):)

The whole night was so awesome. I went to Jen's for dinner and to get ready, and we teased our hair massively and ate fried onions lol. Her paperbag princess outfit was so cute, and her mismatched shoes made it even more awesome. Also, at the dance there was a photobooth which was SO great!!

Except the costumes totally reminded me of Mean Girls lol. Like, EVERYONE was dressed soooo slutty... and then theres Jen in a leaf bag and me in a floor length dress :P And all around us are cats, devils and french maids wearing fishnets and shirts that aren't long enough for them. Good times though hahahaha.

Anyways... English essay calls me. More about Halloween later :)

ghosts and ghouls

I'm pretty excited about this coming Halloween Weekend!!!! :D

I bought all of the extra pieces for my costume last night, and started painting and designing.
Now I just have to get the glue gun out....

KATLIN: I NEED TO HERE ABOUT/SEE YOUR COSTUME!!!!
cause yeah. you know. after that brain storming session.
i have the right to :P



I have the CLC Halloween Party(kinda super stoked for that) tomorrow. Then choir rehearsal/party the next evening. And hopefully I can get dressed up for the Monday too.
Katlin: what are you doing Monday evening at like 6-7:15? I know you eventually going out wtih FTC... but if you have time before hand. I think the kids and I are tick-or-treating in your neighbourhood, cause ours sucks. A lot.
Like 1 out of every 6 houses gives out candy. If even that many...

Well.
I had better get back to my math assignment.
I'm actually pretty on track with that this week :D

It's my english I'm putting off this time....
:S

Midnight Cake :D

So.I have the best housemates in the world
They baked me a surprise heartshaped cake and came into my room singing at midnight :) It was difficult to blow out those candles!
They're such sweethearts lol<3
Then we all had cake and talked ^_^
Thenn Andy surprised me with about a million presents lol
Jeezaloo he really went all out- some of the collection includes lacoste socks, robot earrings, a foamer for lattes, and, best of all... A JESUS PEN!!!
Also, a lovely letter arrived in the mail today from rachel<3 Thanks girlie! it's going on my wall xD
And i got a package from my mummy ^_^ A box fullllll of candyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! All my favourites!
Later today, im going to the ROM with andy--- free admission for u of t students on tuesdays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot!
We are also going to have a "dance party" to a collection of my favourite songs including classics such as..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhSjwU8gEsI
19... what a convenient age ;)

Well, it's 3a.m. and so far, being 19 is great!

<3

Mo

it's not sunny anymore

Hey Lovelies.

Summer has really gone. I only have 3 pages left in my Summer Journal, so it must be true.

I'm trying my best to procrastinate on a Math assignment that is due tomorrow... but I haven't even started yet. So yeah. I should probably fix that :S

But I'm not planning on it... so I'll just write to you girls insted.

My life is starting to be interesting again, and I'm LOVING it!!!!! SO MUCH.
Jurors is so fun right now. YET is great and I feel like what we are doing is helping to open me up and helping me to embrace the wackyness and insanity of acting. I'm SO excited about Phil. We are sounding GREAT. The concert on the 29th is going to be awesome(if you can come please DO. it will be great. I would go just to hear the adult choir, but I'll be singing too, so ya. Double bonus).
I'm for sure in the Messiah(maybe I already posted about this... I forget:P).
And I'm singing in Charles Dickens Writes a Christmas Carol, as well as reading again.
I got an e-mail this morning asking if I wanted to be in it and read the same roles as last year. And obvi I do! And BONUS it counts towards my mandetory volunteering hours for YET. WOOOOO.
Basically things are great right now.
Except I'm kinda sick, which it yucky;.


I had an AMAZING voice lesson on Friday. It just felt SOOOO goood to see the improvements. Get really good feed back, and hear that I sound so much better on pieces I've worked on before. It's just nice when the improvement is OBVIOUS. Cause there is always improvement in everything. Just now I'm actually able to see it:)

Also, I'm feeling really good about piano right now. I'm playing pieces I LOVE, and I'm good at them.
Learning something new and mastering it, never gets old. It always feels good.

Ya. So my life has been pretty great lately. And later today, I get to see KATLIN!!! WOOOOOO :D

TGIF

This week was insane. It felt SO long, even though it was only 4 days.... Thanksgiving seems like a lifetime ago lol.

I had 2 presentations, calculus and bio tests, and my Loran application has to get mailed tonight. So needless to say, things got a little crazy academically. My bio test ended up being easy though, so I'm hoping I got a nice high mark to show for that hard work. And I know I got an 86% in calculus, so at least I'm improving... Blah, that course is so frustrating.

Today it seemed to take FOREVER to figure out all the scholarship stuff. My counselor was away and I needed a signature, the guidance person who did it for me didn't know me well enough to do the little write-up that goes with it, so now I have to do it (which is awkward because it's ABOUT me) and they had to decide which applicants got to be sponsored. Yay stress. No one seemed to comprehend how much work I put into it, and how it needed to be mailed TODAY. Ugh. At least its (almost) done now...

Wednesday was a good day :) After school, Ali and I went to Starbucks and then to pick up Em for ROCK CLIMBING! :D It was SO nice to hang out with them for the night, doing something that we were all pretty good at, and cheering each other on like old times. I completely forgot how much I've missed the "COME ON ALI! YOU CAN DO IT!" and how supportive those girls are of me. Sometimes I forget how much they actually care about me, and it was so nice to be reminded <3 I also realised that no matter how much Ali and I have drifted, she STILL knows me better than almost anyone else in the world. Crazy, right? But that realisation made me believe even more in the power of family <3 :)

Also I got to catch up with Joy a bit that night at coaches training, so that was nice. :)
I vented about coaching, and she told me about her boyfriend Trever and it was just...good lol.
I miss that girl. And all of us together all the time.

I DID SHOOTOVERS AGAIN! They were a lot of fun lol. I was SO happy I could still do them ahahaha. But I'm sore all over... Ribs when I breathe, my butt, inner quads, and shoulders obviously. But it feels good too :)

Thanksgiving Climbing

Most beautiful and perfect day in the sunshine I could have ever asked for. So thankful for my friends who made it possible :) <3

I'm on the left, Josh is on the right, in case you couldn't figure it out :P

why is this day suddenly revolving around a red pepper?

gahhhhhhh that was just plain swell seeing you girlies today :). What isn't swell is that I haven't blogged in...well let's just say I had a time of it remembering my password for my blogging account when I decided to log in a bit ago :P baaaaaad sign. And then the site froze for a few minutes to pay me back for my terrible neglect. I hope we're even now and that my post actually goes through. If you're reading this then cheer once loudly or twice moderately loudly to show your appreciation for the blog cooperating. HUZZAH! haha, I just realized that I first heard that word at the Medieval Festival many a year ago across the hill not so far away...
So, in short, other than mo being sick (I'm so sad and MAD at that dang bug you've got m'dear) and penny's phone being out of battery, our get-together was simply marvelous :) haha...KETCHUP. ooooo, I'm drinking tea right now...think I should be adventurous? I'm already being adventurous by mixing ginger and pomegranate teas...nahhh, I'll save the red wonder-sauce for another time. Look out next time I offer you tea :P
Sooooo, nice bikeride, epic hangout, yummiest double breakfast ever, superb sprinkles, swim, homework, and then everything spiraled down into quite the heated argument about...a red pepper. "Excuse me?" Yeah, that's what I said too ;)
man oh man, I didn't think that poor pepper was going to MAKE it...all of that smoke coming out of everybody's ears was sure to singe it good. I think the internet is not worthy of this story...bahaha, it would've been funny if it didn't affect people I live with.
love you girls

THANKSGIVING GOODNESS!!!

This weekend is going to be SO much fun :)

I'm having some people over tomorrow night(you girls are welcome to come over too if you can! there will be icecream, toppings, hopefully a bon-fire and other yummy stuff!!!! LET ME KNOW IF YOU CAN!!!!)

And then I'm seeing you people Saturday morning. Eating yummy potluck food Saturday at dinner, then TURKEY dinner on sunday with the Fam Jam :)

And then some sort of sleepover Monday-Sunday with a undetermined individual.

I won't be lonely at all for the next few days at least :)


:O jurors starts this coming week!!! speaking of which, I should start memorising.

weekends like these should never end

When did I finally start having a social life guys? And how do I make this wonderful thing stay forever?
I know this is probably terrible timing since I really need to focus on school this year, but I honestly just want to see my friends and pretend summer never left us. I want to put homework and sleep off and play Rockband and go climbing and have gym sleepovers and epic sunday parties (with Rachel of course!) and full contact twister with people I just met. I want having fun to be my top priority and seeing friends to happen every day.
I want to keep getting dressed up and eating Bangkok Cuisine with Jen (you know your friends are awesome when they can handle spicy food :P). And driving around and plotting about boys even though we're both losers on that department lol.
And having gym sleepovers with the girls I grew up with, because I miss them SO much. Going on late night adventures and seeing this person who looked EXACTLY like Voldemort at McDonalds when we went to get ice cream... Lol. Trampoline in the rain until your feet are numb, and staying up just talking, because you feel SO at home with them in bed next to you. <3
And going to sweet sixteen birthdays that are more like 13th birthdays but are awesome anyways :D With epic chocolate fountains and playing full contact twister (it gets suuuper violent aha) and Rockband but with everyone singing because the person who's actually supposed to doesn't know the words :P And opening presents that consist of chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. Pretty fricken awesome :)
Car rides with the person Mr. Court thinks I'm dating... Lol.
Guys I love life, but it doesn't have time for this thing called SCHOOL...

changing again, and again

So my life has changed again!!!!!!

Basically I think I get to do everything I want to this season!
Which is actually AMAZING.

I should be asleep right now, but clearly I'm not.
I have a concert at ten thousand villages in the morning, so I need to sleep.


I enjoyed talking to Maya on the phone today :) and I can't wait to seeeeeee you all at various times over the next 2 weeks ish.

K. Love you all. bye,

Bustin' out the rainboots :P

Helloooo ^_^
This week was really difficult lol. i had allll my tutorials and practicals this week. So toss in an extra 6hour of classish time x|. I also started work :D I actually really like it!! except for working in this one location.... :S but i only worked there once and i probably wont be put there very often :D I have my dorky uniform and my swipe card to clock in :D.It's just all-around a really good work environment. Customers are just students and staff so theyre friendly and chill xD. Anyways, i had my first bio lab this week! I held a stick bug and made these cockroaches from madagascar hiss at us by poking them :o hehehehe. I'm super tired for some reason :S I havent even done homework at all today...which is nice :p but it is appproaching 10pm so im gonna get on that momentarily... I'm feeling good about calculus- i think i can at least kick this upcoming quiz in the ass :P
Tomorrow is this big art festival all night long and it starts at 7 :D My housemates invited me to pre-celebrate it up :P which i think will be a good time :D :D :D YAY! Guys, Andy is the bestest this week, he keeps buying me chocolate... :S :D hahahaha
Love it here haha. My housemates and i are quite familial now which i also enjoy :D<3

playlists

So insted of doing my english assignment and being productive, I'm making playlists on itunes, and writing this post...
yeah. I am GREAT at managing my time... :P


I miss you all so much right now. I really just want to snuggle up with any and all of you! (AND SHOW YOU MY ROOOOOOM!!!!!!)

Like actually. I feel like I hardly EVER see anyone my age these days. Except for choir on Wednesday and Thursday.... But we're all working then, and we can't really socialize.


I'm picking up my script for Jurors today. Which I am actually really excited about.
Like I said in my last post, this season has fliped flopped around SO much. I just hope I've made all of the right decisions... and that things will work out well.
And the scary thing is that these are all SMALL decisions compared to most of the other ones I will be making in the near future.

Last night I watched 500 Days of Summer for the first time.
I'm going on a bit of a Zooey Deschenel craze right now :P
I LOVED IT! SO MUCH.
Like really.


Anyway. I have to go find some inner meaning in some poem or other.

LOVE YOU MY DEARS!

life, life, more life

Just an update on what I've been up to.... Since it feels like forever since I've seen you girls :(

I've been SO. BUSY.
Yesterday was fun, I went climbing with my brother after school, which was awesome because there was like 5 people in the whole place (and they were all either cute or hot guys :P) so we got to climb a LOT in not very much time. I love that my bro and I actually hang out now <3
Then after that I did math problems... ew. BUT I went through this entire unit and figured out EVERY problem that I had trouble with. So I feel pretty confident about my test on friday now :) It was a good feeling to be like OHHHHH I get it now :P
Then after that (it was a long night lol) I had coaches training!!!!!!! :D I was feeling pretty good, and I actually did legit tumbling again! :):):) My goal is to put it all back on regular floor (I'm on air-floor now, its easier on wrists and ankles). I also did some bars (ish :P) and kipping is finally easy again lol. Which is also a good feeling :)
I miss training SO much. Bleh. I could go on about that a lot, but I probably shouldn't spill all my inner feelings and doubts to the internet :P

On tuesday I hung out with Jen after school for a bit, which was nice:) We're plotting something for next friday night aha. I love life.

This weekend will be SO CRAZY guys. I'm going out for dinner with Jen, Emily is sleeping over, climbing with Alex, Meagan's bday party, coaching, hmwk (major english project...), hopefully seeing you girls at some point even for just a couple hours....

Okay I gotta go, school calls....
Love you <3

Changing Quickly

This year has flipfloped, spun around and changed SO many times for me ALREADY!

My schedule wasn't set(still isn't a 100%...) until like 2 days ago.

I auditioned of one show, didn't get in.
Then I audition for another show... don't get in.
Audition for something else, get it.
Then I find out that someone dropped, so I'm in the second show I auditioned for...
So now I'm dropping myWednesday choir, and doing that insted.

At least that's what I think I'm doing, at this point anyway :P

MY ROOM IS FINISHED AND BEAUTIFUL!!!!!
I need you all over here PRONTO!!!!
I believe Mo is coming home this coming weekend... so sistar hang out, my place Saturday?
Please!!!!!
I know I'm busy Saturday morning, and Sunday pretty much ALL day. But it would be GREAT to see as many of you girls as possible!
Yeah.
Please let this happen.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE my new ROOOOOOM!!!!!!
It's SO nice, and BIG :D
And yeah.
I want you all to see it before it gets messy :P

BEST SATURDAY EVAR!

Ok so i promised Rachel i would blog :P
Yayyyyy today was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! I love sistar visits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3
I am so so so happy you girlies camee!!! (can't wait for u to come up savannah and maya)
So the day consisted of walking around campus (i learned a lot myself... PEACOCK LIBRARY!)eating yummy thai food, seeing my house, making fun of Andy's blue forhead, getting epic frozen yogurt(and dumping yucky green tea into andy's cup xD), "browsing" at some pretty funky stores,trying to comprehend the subway system, andddd starbucks on a patio being asked for change and then being told by a lady that a homeless guy was a "disgusting human being". :o jeepers, they really dont mess around...
Apparently theres a party at my house tonight, with pretty much only french people hahaha. i'm invited (obz;P) but at this point im seriously considering a nap instead :P.What else is new in life? I'm employed!yayy
And class work is piling up a wee bit, but im pretty much on top of it all... except geography... the only class i fell asleep in.....:P
Anyways, im pretty much loving it here!!
And a visit from sistars made life so much better<3

WOOOWW this sucks

OK So I totally wrote like a super long post and then the website wouldn't post it and then my computer decided to shut off and it's all very upsetting. Ok so I'll try and reiterate the things that I said with the same amount of enthusiasm:P

I miss you girlies so much! Like it's not even funny! We need to (somehow) plan times at least semi frequently were we can all get together. That would make me super happy!!

So I started this school year off fairly eventfully, sort of. I got sick last Sunday... which sucked, but I only ended up missing two days of school and two days of dance, so it could have been a lot worse. Ever since I got better (Thursday) I don't know whats going on with me, like usually on Thursday I get a little wired from things such as lack of sleep and stuff, although I think there's something about Thursdays that end up being just a little crazier, and just excessively happy and energetic etc. but usually that goes away by Friday night for my advanced two class, but this week, it just stayed. Even after I just had so much energy!! It's great.

I'm so happy too! I started my contemporary solo on Thursday! It's going to be epic! Oh my goodness I'm so pumped! So you girls know my contemporary solo from last year, how I was a little on the schizophrenic/crazy side, well Miss K was just like, yeah last year was just preparation for this year. TROLOLOL I get to be even more twisted and screwed up than last year! I don't know what it is with me and crazy/creepy/demented dances/combos, but me and them just click! We get along so well. I don't know why or how or whatever, or if its exactly a good thing..... but I love doing creepy-ass dances, they make me so happy. But yeah, the next time we get together and it's in conjunction with me having my ipod with me, AND its not dead, then I'll play my song for your girls. It's got a bit of a spanishy flair. I get red and lace in my costume.

LOL some people (not close/good friend people) at school say I dance/talk about dance to much! SO funny, they totally don't get that I don't care what they think. It's great.

Anywho lets see if this one will post
Miss you girls to the moon and back times all of our ages multiplied together then multiplied by one gagillion!

so much awesomeness

GUYS, I'M SO EXCITED!
The Kitchener climbing gym opened!!!!  It's big and gorgeous and I CAN BIKE THERE!

A big group of us went last night (coaches+old gym friends+room mate+Joy!) and it was awesome.  I want to get a memebership and a harness and go all the time! Plus theres more 5.8 walls (which I can actually climb to the top...) and new 5.9s for me to work on, since I was sort of stuck at the Grotto.  I sort of still like the atmosphere of the Grotto better, but this place is still pretty great.  I like how at the Grotto everyone knows each other and it feels like this little community. Which this place just needs more time to develop I guess :)

I probably went to bed waaaaaay too late last night and got up too early this morning, but I can't contain my excitement! Like you have no idea!!

Also, I have a bunch of calculus to do... BUT IT CAN WAIT BECAUSE I HAD TO TELL YOU THIS. Lol. I sure have my priorities straight :P

new year

well, the school year is officially in full swing! Except I haven't actually stared working on my courses yet... and the only thing that's started for me yet is choir....
I had an audition this evening, and it felt SO good!
I memorised my monologue yesterday before bed. And I went and did it full out.
(lol Kate, it was my 1 min one.... but I paused and took lots of breathes... and that made it like 3mins30sec:P)
They made had me read 4 or 5 parts afterwards, and I have a callback tomorrow evening.
It's going to be like 4 hours long! lol. 5-9!
When S called me for my callback, he said something about my audition be good. and then he was like, "congratulations again on a REALLY good audition".
soooo. yeah.
I feell... okay :P


Mom and I got blizzards today! lol. After my audition and after our trip to home hardware, we stopped and got some yummmmmy icecream!!!! :D
Then we went to the library, which made me really very quite happy :)


For those of you I haven't spoken with lately. New York was AMAZING!!!!!! We can talk later, but all you need to know is that it was great, i weigh much more now, i have so many nice thrifted clothes, and I LOVE forever 21!!!!! And I love marine life, but detest aquariums. Like actually they make me want to cry everytime I think of them.

I had my first read through/rehearsal for the play I'm directing for T and M :D lol. It was cute.
it would have been nice if more people could have actually 'read'... but thats what you get for working with 3-11 year olds :)

everything

Wow I haven't blogged in an embarassingly long time :$ sorry about that.... love you!!

So I have one whole week to get settled into my school routine before diving into dance aswell. I'm so, so, so excited to start competition dances but also nervous as hell. I honestly don't know how I'm going to do it this year. I feel like I'm going to totally ware myself out and have NO life! Like I have 2 easy courses plus a spare but still, I don't know how I'm going to do all the homework, even if those courses are easier than my sciences, they still have homework and they still take up an hour and a quarter of my time each day. To top it all off, because I now want to go into marine biology, apparently the school is super hard to get into so I have to have top notch grades and I don't know how I'm going to do that..... But apparently I'm going to LOVE my contemporary music.... thats all I know... that and its cut.. :P and apparently senior open has something to do with rose(s), and senior tap, there is someone who has controle over us... lol Very cryptic I know. We're thinking were in the military or something.. lol But I really can't wait to start competition dances no matter how crazy my life will be!!!

nerdz 2^2 ever!

Last night was fun :) I went to my friend Graham's birthday pool/hot tub/campfire party with Jen and Brenna. Graham and I met on the computer science team, and then we kept being friends in history club because he sat behind me. What a dorky way to become friends :P But I sort of love that about us ahaha.
I actually love my friends from this summer. They're nerdy and crazy fun to hang out with. It's like I'm finally finding people who are awesome enough to want to do stuff with them outside of school for once haha. They're easy going and never awkward, and I want you guys to meet them :)
We played never have I ever and truth or dare and beer pong with rootbeer :P
And had a watergun fight in the pool and then sat with our feet in the hot tub for sooo long lol.
It was cute:)
Maybe I won't mind school starting again quite as much as I thought. Like, I'M A SENIOR GUYS!!!! And I'll have history club and Free the Children with AWESOME people. And track and triathlon in the spring, which I'm determined to finish the whole thing with Meagan this year. I might join grad club with Jen. And like, I dunno. I just can't help being at least a little excited for all that. This is my last chance, so I'm gonna make the year awesome :D

a week at the beach

...Left me with probably the greatest tan ever, nbd :D
And with 2 new bathingsuits (buy one get one free!) that I love.
And with a new closeness with my cousin Derek. We've been through a whole new step of life together now, and I hope we stay as close as we were this week.
And with a new friend, who I'll probably hardly see ever, sadly. This point actually makes me so upset :(

My Long Point holiday this year was... a lot different from before. I guess we're just getting older, K+D's kids are older, Derek brought a friend instead of a girlfriend, and so I hung out with them a lot more because I didn't bring a friend. So between all that, stuff was just... not what you'd expect from me.
Read the journal for the details I'd rather not spill online lol.

To be honest, thinking about it all now, I'm not sure how I feel about it. I didn't do anything wrong. And nothing has really changed. But somehow it has.

I miss you girls like crazy... and my safe, secure, predictable, hard work and routine filled life. I want to go back into my routine of hanging out and being happy with how things are turning out, accomplishing stuff and planning for the future. No matter how scary the future is, I can always fool myself into thinking it's infinitely far away. There's only so much living in the moment someone like me can take...

pondering the meaning of life

As I sit here bouncing franticly(like actally the laptop on my respective lap is jiggling uncontrollingly) I find many thoughts racing through my rapid fire adolecent mind.
Many truths are revealed to me at the bewitching hour that is now upon me.
When the wee hours of the nice take me in their grip my mind is no longer my own. It's like little beast enter through my nose and take over the rest of my being.
Ideas flit across the canvase of my mind like hurried butterflies caught on a wild wind that blows from the softness of the southern regions of our wonderful world. A place where only golden happiness exsists.
A world where creatures undiscovered roam and hid, never to be found our harmed by a human touch.
There are moments when the night just starts to deteriorate my senses and filters. Making me into a savage beast that roams the far reaches of the hidden mind.
Things are possible when the cricket sings its lonesome song outside my open widow while the hurried midnight drives zoom by in the dark that are not possible when the sky is bright and the sun illuminates every nook and cranie.
Sometimes I feel like I don't know why people do anything during the day. There is no reason for us to crave the day light any longer. As a speices we have created environments and instruments that allow us to function in a way unnatural and unknown to our anncestors. We essentially have created a new territory where we are no longer controlled by the lights in the sky. We have made it possible to see, grow, create and life in what would be darkness. There is almost no need for darkness now. We have eliminated darkness.
Which is scary. Since the difference between darkness and light was one of the first things established at the beginning of the world. Every creature, plant and environment relies on the ablitly to draw energy from the bright light of the day, and to rest and rejuvinate in the darkness and cool of the gentle night.
When the wild ponies that are lead by the reins of our minds are set loose, the drag intuition and logic with them, leaving a gaping hole for the wonders of the other world that we forget as we grow old to creep back in. As the years from childhood pass, the hole fights against itself to close, until we reach an age where it sags back and turns into ancient insanity. The second childhood. Personally I plan never to leave the first childhood behind entirely. Therefore my decline may seem to come sooner than most others, but really that's not the truth at all.


There you have it. 10 solid minutes of writing. None stop. No editing. No pre-reading before publishing for your lovely eyes to enjoy.
Let's just say this is the result of a late summer mist and possibly a does of caffiene....

As much as I would like to think that coffee has no effect on me. The numbers on my clock beg to differ. As do my wide eyes and frantic limbs.


On a note that actually makes sense and relates to my life.
I'm missing Jane Eyre, but I'm excited for this year.
And I can't wait to do another intensive in 2012.
I'm actually moving rooms. Most likely in September...
I am for sure for sure going to see Jesus Christ Superstar with my daddy on the 1st of September.
I'm sleeping over at Jessie's tomorrow.
I may not be going to long point at all :(
I want to hang out with all of you girls(at least the ones who are around right now).
My room is MUCH cleaner than it has been in quite awhile....
Today was fabulous.
I went to the nature area and took some pretty great pictures. it's been a while since I've spent some quality time with my camera.
Mom and I went thrift store shopping and I got a pretty decent array of items(including 2 pretty epic rings!)
It was 50% off day at Talize, which made everything that much more epic.
I want to write in the journals(also my own personal one...) but I feel like my writing would be illegible(more so than usual :P) so I'll stick to typing - though I might regret that when I do eventually read this back at somepoint... if ever :P
Even now I can hardly remember what I wrote about for 10minutes. Honestly. I was on autopilot. lol. I appologize. But I figure you girls can take it. Or we're at least close enough that I don't mind if you ignore it.

Hmmmmm. I think I've worn myself out. I might be feeling the crash from that ice capp(finallly!!!!!)
mom and I watched Yentle today. It's a Barbra Strisen movie. It was pretty good. until the ending which didn't make any sense :P
I liked the music though :)

I want to know what show singer's theatre is doing next year!


OMG. I need to sleep.
k thanks bye.

Closing

Jane Eyre closes today.
I has been a fabulous experience.
The show has touched my life is so many ways.
The story has made me think about things I hadn't for a while. Make something with a group of people like this is magic. It was a bit like a homecoming for me. I hadn't realized just how much I had missed being in intensives, until this.

I love the cast. Each person has their own distinct personality. We are all so different, and yet it works.

This will be a show that will stay in my heart forever.

Thank you girls for coming and supporting. I love you all.

Opening Night!

It's here!!!!!
I actually can't believe it. We moved into the theatre yesterday. And this afternoon we do it with lights, and then this evening with an audience!

I love this show soooo much.
Its amazing and stunning and there are moments when it takes my breath away.

I'm so happy that you will all be able to see it!

just stuff

I LOVE MY GOODLIFE MEMBERSHIP. Like so much. Guys you don't understand how much I LOVE to work out. Ahhhhh. I love that feeling after you're done doing abs and you can't breath for a second, and then you feel your muscles un-tense finally but they're still shake-y. I love the way my muscles feel so TIRED after. But good too. I feel good all over! And I love stretching muscles that actually NEED to be stretched haha. I JUST LOVE IT!
Too bad it costs money if I want to keep going after September starts :(

Also, I've decided to write up lesson plans and a program base for my coaching this year. A few of those girls are ready to be pushed a little harder, and I want to have some kind of system in place to get them to where they should be. If Dan makes a system (like he always say he will) then I'll use that obviously. But since that never seems to happen... I'm making my own. It's just good to have a plan :)
I want to get Jordan, Jen, Libby and Krista into the best shape possible. Love those kids <3

LONG POINT IN THREE SLEEPS!
I'm more than a little excited :P

whiplash

I don't understand how a day can go from fabulous and fun, to my crying on the car ride home.
Wow. I don't know. But I'm not impressed at all :(

Basically, I'm just terrified for my exam now. No big deal.

best week ever

This week has been amazing!
As of tomorrow I will have a 7 day streak of seeing at least one of you girls every day!
And if Kaya's red party is for sure on Monday, I'll be up to 8 in a row <3

Currently babysitting Jadon... he's watching a movie, but I should be putting him to sleep soon.

SOOOOO STOKED FOR SAVANNAH'S PARTY!!!
And doing Katlin's hair of course.

And dying Mo's and mine :D

This morning I went to Jessie's house to visit for a bit.
We were going to go out for lunch... but then we realized that we are both broke. sooo, we invented lol. It was pretty good for just finding random stuff in her kitchen :)

ten hour work days...

Let me just say, I'm incredibly jealous that you guys are hanging out every day and I have to work :( Yesterday I was there for ten hours, but only paid for seven of them. Yay for super long lunch breaks... Not.

Today I'm working one to three, but going in at 11:30 because Alex and I are going out during that super long lunch. Which is fine lol, I don't mind that at all. But it's still one less hour I can spend with you
Also, on top of all the work stuff and drivers training that I can't get out of, my mom is being so frustrating about family stuff. I know she only gets certain holidays, but I don't see why I have to be home during them if we don't actually DO anything. Like if she wants to do family holidays, thats all good with me. But so far she just wants me HOME all day Sunday and Monday. With no plans whatsoever. Yippee...

I'm feeling majorly sistarly deprived!

Summer Lovin'

This past week was SO amazing <3
Port Elgin was beatiful!
I wish I could spend everyday reading and sleeping in the sand, then splashing in the clear water.

We went swimming EVERYDAY! It was a good 6 days.
I hope we will continue being able to go again for at least one more year...(I think I say that every year...).
I read SOOOOO much! lol.
Book 2+3 of HP and a crazy weird book called Bumped(so weird, but I liked it... because it was weird). Basically the concept of Bumped is that a virus has made it so that only people under 18 can reproduce... and who ever can, does it for money. So weird, twisted, and controvercial, but good!

Today I read the play to the group of kids who will be performing it in the fall. It should be good. lol.
It's weird teaching kids music that you made up yourself... especially when you don't know it very well yet yourself(and I wasn't smart enough to write anything out of make notes or anything...)
Oh well.
Should be good :)

Also.
Maya: reading all of your comments on my blog made my day! ( found them today, and I couldn't help but grin)
:D I can't wait to see you girly!!!!!!!

middle of summer

I've pretty much gotten my head fully into summer mode. It's awesome :)

I spent the ENTIRE weekend with Savannah, and it was fantastic. We went to Elora with Nesh on Sunday, and floated out in the middle of the quarry and just talked all afternoon. It was really nice :) Then it was Savannah's birthday, and we ate DELICIOUS crepes and we went to Maya's (with no Maya there :( ) for a swim with Nesh and Chris. That was fun too! Except for the lack of Maya-ness. But that will change soon :D
Weird how I've seen your brother more than you so far this summer... Lol. Don't worry though, that'll change as of TOMORROW when you get home!!!! *super excited face*

Monday was climbing, and catching up with Joy for a bit <3 She's as boy crazy as ever, but it was good to see her. I've missed that girl a lot.

Tuesday I started reading Beauty Queens. Which so far is like my new favouritest book ever. I haven't laughed this hard since I read An Abundance of Katherines. Except this one is funny but about really serious issues. And really feminist. And really awesome.
I LOVE LIBBA BRAY!

Also Tuesday, Alex picked me up and we went to Josh's to chill and play Rockband. SO. MUCH. FUN. They're so easy to be myself around <3 I've realised that Josh is so ridiculously awesome. In terms of personality, he'd score a ten hands down. Nice, confident, funny, enthusiastic, sweetheart, AWESOME. And so gentlemanly! He always opens my car door for me, which is so sweet:) And Alex does all these little things that actually matter, like double checking all my knots before I climb and waiting until I get inside safe before driving away and always looking out for me :)

Wednesday I hung out with Alex (from FTC) after he was done work. We went to buy food for Friday (s'mores stuff, popcorn, freezies, cups) and then just walked around a lot lol. He bought me a Froster and we sat by a pond and watched the turtles. It was cute :)
Then we walked to his friend Warren's house and dragged him away from a super nerdy computer project to have a water balloon fight. After a bit I texted Meagan and she came too, and we ate popsicles tossed balloons at each other until we were soaked.
I had a good time, but my feet hurt from walking so much lol.

Then today I went to Goodlife and then work... And thats it for my week :)

a taste of the future

So I'm pretty much living on my own this week.
Cooking my own food. Getting myself everywhere. Buying stuff I need. Cleaning the house :(
I could seriously get used to having my own place. SO MUCH FREEDOM <3

This week has been spontaneous and good :) I didn't have any plans made ahead of time, and every day I wake up and I'm like ugh what am I going to do today. But it's all worked out nicely:)
Monday I watched Desperate Housewives all morning :P Then coached and rock climbed :D Highlight of my week probably, I actually love those nights so much <3
Then Tuesday I used my gym membership, and then cooked lunch for Rachel (pasta and pesto). So we hung out for a bit and then I went to work and it was SO HOT in the gym. But I had a good bonding moment with Dan when he showed me the new twisting drill and got me to try it. I missed gym so much in that moment...
Today MO is coming over :D
AND I used my gym membership again. Go me! :P
And tonight I might hang out with Alex. Idk. I hate when you don't know if you have plans with someone or not because they're so vague... Blah. Whatever though, I'm sure it'll work out. Or if not, he'll owe me for next time :P
Anyways, I should go brush my hair before Monika gets here...

melting

It's so hot right now, and I'm just kind of unimpressed by stuff. And if you were to ask me why and at what... I don't think I could really pin point it at this point.
lol. And I have a feeling I know what that means ;)
And if not, I'm just a terrible person all the time :P

Yesterday I babysat for like 6 hours. Someones Else's kids for a change, and I actually got paid(another change)!
$50 in an afternoon of drawing, playing at the park and watching a movie isn't bad at all.
(Katlin: Three guesses which musical they went to see while I was babysitting)
 ;)
I really need an actually job. Cause yeah. Money in general is just good.

On the note of money, my parents have finally realized that I need a flute and it's stupid to buy a flute locally for like $400 more than if we bought it on ebay.
Basically they are just terrified of technology and the fact that there are added border fees and no returns freaks them out.
But I trust my flute teacher. She buys flutes online ALL the time, and if she says its good and she trusts it, I'm not going to question.
It'll be SOOO nice to play on an instrument that actually likes being played, and will actually respond musically.

I WANT TO READ THE SECOND HARRY POTTER BOOK ALREADY!
I just finished the first, and now I have to wait until the book is ready on the holdshelf :(
I don't know. I just feel like this is the summer to re-read all the books if there ever was one.
If anyone is feeling rich and wants to buy the whole series for me(books AND movies) I would be totally game ;)

I'm SUPER STOKED for Jane Eyre. I have extra narration parts now too, which will be nice.
There are supposed to be 10 different narrators, each with several parts through out, but Gord is distributing them between I think 4 or 5 of us. So it'll be good.
Now in total my roles include:
First Soprano(screeching a's for the win), Mary Ingram(speaking lines/solo), Small Group(6 part harmony with 6 other girls, and I'm on the low tenor line! lol, yay man voice!) and Narrator.
Yeah.
This will be fun :)

wonderland, dance, hp and other summery things

OK well I might as well start off with the pageant.
It was really crazy and a little streasfull but overall a really good experience I'm thinking. On the first day I had to get all dressed up for the interview with my little suit and skirt that my mommy bought me and all fancy and everything. I don't think the interview went too badly concidering I've never been in that kind of situation before. But then after that we had the opening number rehersal for the show on the next day (it was to Beautiful People from Burlesque, we should watch that movie btw, it's kind of amazing<3) and Jerard (the graduate from NBS judge) choreographed it and it was like all kicks for the most part but really fun. Then for the next day we had all of the audition classes and the ballet on with Jerard went really well but the jazz and lyrical auditions were so intense! The judge Breana did both of those auditions but they were really challenging for several reasons: 1) she couldn't demonstrate what she wanted us to do very well because she had a minor concussion from a head injury during a show she was in 2) both combos were really, really fast 3) they were really long and we only had like half an hour to learn them, and yeah it was just really hard. But after that it was good :) we finished the opening number which was really fun (although still hard work) and then we had the show! It was so good! The girl who won was so nice! Shes so good!

This week has been amazing!! Monday, hp 1+2 with Rachel. Tuesday I hung out with Kelton and went to dance :) Dance was pretty good other than the fact that I pulled both of my hamstrings and they're only just getting back to normal:/ also, the combo for lyrical that we did was super easy especially after having just done the pageant with all the crazy fast choro... every aspect of it was super simple. Wednesday was wonderland with Rachel! It was so awesome! I got a seasons pass so we have to go a lot this summer:D Then thursday was hp 3,4,5,6+ 7a with Rachel again which was awesome again, then Friday!!!!!!!! First me, my mom and Kaya all went shopping at conostoga and I bought a bunch of cloths :D lol And then the last harry potter movie!!!! It was amazing omg I`m so in love with it!!! Then Satureday me and my mom went to pinehurst with Katlin and famjam which was fun, then later I hung out with Kelton and some other people from school. Then today me and Katlin went swimming and obvi tanning/burning (for me) lol Tomorrow I`m so excited cause my famjam is going to the beach for the first time this year!! (like greatlake beach) and yeah! I`m being mature and everything cause I said I would help my mom make food for it :P

Well thats all for now :P We need to hang out all five of us soon!! Oh and I turn 16 in 8 days :O!!!!

What a wonderful fail!

Those few spaces are because i'm not sure how to say hello after so long... so there it is ;P
Would you like to hear about my first car accident?
I thought so.

Pingping and i were doing a G2 exam simulation and at the very end i drove over this huge curb while entering a parkinglot to coffeetime. What a win! :P
No damage to the car, but the noises it made were quite frightening and sure got my adrenaline pumping. So yeah, two days after i passed the G2 test lol. Thanks for letting me borrow your car katlin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i know i've said it a million times, but seriously ;D) So after i passed pingping and i went to pinehurst :) of course i drove :P after a few minutes of arguing lol.

Basically since then i've worked everyday, including tomorrow, but i get the car tomorrow :D :D


So this is completely irrelevant but i made iced peppermint peach tea last night and am now going to indulge myself, all hail Monika! (summer is also worth hailing....)

Ciao ciao for now :)<3

my week in a nutshell

Well, this week really didn't go as planned. But I guess that's okay with me. It was a fun one, despite everything I missed out on.

Monday we didn't end up going rock climbing, so I was not too pleased about that. Tuesday I got my gym membership (yay!) and went to Em's for a swim. That was really nice, I've missed her SO ridiculously much <3 We ate delicious BBQed pizza and ice cream sandwitches and lounged in her pool all afternoon. Can I just do that forever please?

That night at coaching was not so great, I had a lot of kids all to myself at a lot of different levels... A challenge for sure. But on top of that, other coaches were being huge jerks. Coming over and standing there, watching me coach and critisizing everything is NOT helping. If you don't like what I'm doing, TELL ME HOW TO FIX IT. Or maybe actually come coach a few kids yourself, since I have way too many to handle on my own.

So I was pissed that night. And not so pleased that I was missing out on wonderland.

BUT he made it up to me the next day by us all going to see Transformers 3 :D Which was SO good, in case you were wondering. Such a guys movie, but I wouldn't have wanted anything else when I went with them <3

Then today I had my first in-car training, which went pretty well. My instructor told me I did really well, and parking isn't as scary as I thought it would be :P

Now I'm coaching all afternoon/night, hopefully rock climbing tonight, and coaching tomorrow. Finally making some money to pay for all the outings with Josh and Alex :P

this is for you my love!

So basically this has been one of the best weeks of summer ever :)

I was part of the band for the menno youth gathering thingy.
WE WERE SOOOOO AWESOME!
Like really.
Not only was everyone involved super talented, but we had the best selection of instruments between the 9 of us.

Including:
Cello
Violin
Pop Bottle Bass (BEST THING EVER!!!! lol. Like really)
Melodica
Piano
Djembe(spelling?)
Drum Kit
EVERY KIND OF HAND HELD PERCUSSION EVER
Flute
Banjo
Trumpet
Trombone
Fanfare Trumpet
Penny whistle
MANY MANY MANY guitars
and VOICES!!!

We had every kind of musical style I can think of(except maybe screamo/rap...).

Some of my favourite musical highlights include:
 Acacpella 4 part harmony between 9 people(SO GORGEOUS!!!!)
Impromtu drum circle/epic ad lib flute solo
Last minute guitar/flute duet. We slowed down some of most reflective music. And it was just a wonderful moment, making beautiful music with the lights barely there. It was like a magical dream. Yeah. i enjoyed it :)

There have been a few crazy/frustrating moments, but at least I got to go through those with some of my new favourite people. Some of which I may never see ever again... actually.
Brilliant idea. Imagonna invite the band over for a BBQ/bonfire!

There were definitely some challenges(example: having to choose music to fit a service... 10minutes before sound check). But it was so worth it.
I'm going to miss everyone so much!

I'd really appreciate if someone blogged...

you honestly have no idea how bored I am.

and how dumb my phone is being about blogging. like really. i cant make capital letters or correct anything. ugh.

someone text me or something. or blog. or give me some idea of what i can do.....

this is the worst week ever of summer. and I've had pretty bad ones. but this beats them all...

note to self, never take drivers ed or put kids in drivers ed EVER.

crazy fantastic day

Yesterday. Was. Awesome.
That's really all I have to say.

KIDDING.
I'll tell you all about it :P

So I got up, recovered from the weekend finally haha and went for a run, then my mom took me to get my FREE gym membership. I love free anything ;)
Then I biked to Savannah's to figure out some complications in her life ;) WHICH BTW I'm totally a genius. And I learned how to pre-order Harry Potter tickets! Although I'm not sure if that's a good idea because then I'll probably end up with 2 tickets and only one person to go.... lol.
But ya. Then Alex texted me about rock climbing and apparently we were going at 3 this week because that's when he finished work, so I biked home as fast as I absolutely could so I could be there for when Josh picked me up. Not so fun. I was dying and we weren't even climbing yet hahahaha.
Rock climbing was SO awesome though! I climbed both walls that I had trouble with the week before, and Alex taught me to belay so I took my test and now you guys can come with me :) Aw its so cute though, Alex still always belays for me even though we don't need him to anymore. But it makes me feel safer :) And then he can push me to really work as hard as I can and help me with my technique which is so nice :)
After that, instead of just bringing me home, Josh wanted to hang out so we all went out for dinner and they hit on the waitress and we read cheesy pickup lines off his iphone app. "Baby, are you a Snickers? Because you sure satisfy me ;)"
Those guys are actually SO funny. In a crazy, stupid-boy, I can do anything kind of way. I love them <3
Then we headed back to Joshie's place just to hang out and drink beer (well... that was the plan but just Josh drank) and they taught me to play Euker!! SO MUCH FUN. Except I totally made Alex and I lose lol... Oops. We stayed out way later than I probably should have, but it was honestly so much fun.
And it was so cute, Alex didn't drink so that he could drive me home even though I told him it was okay for me to call my dad. And he always waits to make sure I get in safe :)
It's honestly like having an awesome older brother.
And even though they're 22 and 24, I reeeeally love hanging out with those two.
They just always take care of me, and are easy to talk to and be open with.
Love my gym friends <3

Canada Day :D

I'm down for that but its Knight and Day, and Rachel would like burlesque, Mean Girls 2 is totallllly lame and vampires suck is kind of stupid but still funny just so you know :P

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH tomorrow is going to be amazing!!! I cant wait! I haven't been to see the fireworks for years and years :/ oh well tomorrow we will! and uhhh are we still coming back to my house cause if so, I'll deff need to clean my room, like majorly X_X lol

My mom wants me to get a part time job -_- the sad thing is, she is kind of right. Like I NEED the money :/ ugh!! I don't want one though :( It's so silly

Oh and people need to blog more! Although that coming from me is a little hypocritical :$ lol I'm getting better?:D

I can't wait to see you guys tomorrow <3<3<3

Caberet

Thank you SOOO much for coming to see my performance last night Savannah!
I'm sorry you couldn't come Katlin.... but you've already heard me sing Taylor, The Latte Boy... so you didn't completely miss the best part :)

It was such a nice evening! It's so fun to perform and hear where everyone else is right now.
I'm so pleased that I have Amanda as my teacher. I feel like I've improved so much over this past few months, and I'm excited to see where else this is going to take me!

I really want to hear about the results of my Sound of Music Audition. I don't even know how I feel right now.
Things are complicated :P

movie night ideas

Harry Potter marathon (before the last movie!)
Modern Family Marathon
Day and Night
Blood Diamond
Burlesque (because I know Rachel would like it :) )
Date Night
Despicable Me
Limitless
Mean Girls 2
Little Miss Sunshine (I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF THIS MOVIE <3)
Scot Pilgrim vs. The World
Shutter Island (I don't want to watch this alone...)
The Blind Side
The Hangover (also never gets old in my opinion)
Vampires Suck
Water for Elephants

this weather sucks

All I want to do is be outside in the sunshine, with or without my chemistry notes... But sadly the weather isn't really co-operating :(
I JUST WANNA SLEEP ON MY TRAMPOLINE ARGGGGGGGGG!!!!!

Okay. Instead, I think it's time to make a summer bucket list. Here's some ideas for us, but feel free to add to it :)

-long bike rides including picnics
-swimming at the pools near mine and Savannah's houses
-campfires at Rachel's
-testing out the sushi place by my house
-that nature area! photoshoot included!
-movie nights EVERY WEEK :D
-art projects.... I miss art club
-sewing clothes!
-sleeping under the stars on my trampoline
-water balloon fights
-playing beach volleyball
-learning to play tennis
-picnic with other ex-homeschoolers

...

Crazy! I can't believe your done high school forever!!! :O thats insain!

Im so happy its summertime!!I know just wish the weather would catch up :/ its cold:( and that makes me mad

Oh well :P I have a three year plan (with my dance) and hopefully it means that I can compete in an international ballet competition :D I just have to get a distinction on my advanced 2 and then I'll qualify :D

I can't wait to see you all! I miss you so so so so so so much<3<3<3

when did this happen?

My brother graduates today! :O
And Maya is graduating as I write this....

When did we all start growing up so fast??

If anyone cares, my brother is a babe ;)
He let me fix up his hair for him, and he picked out this REALLY BRIGHT purple shirt thats kinda shiny. Its soooo dorky. But in an incredibly cute way. So proud to say he's my brother <3
I can't believe we'll be in high school together! I'm so excited though.
AND we'll be in the same class in second semester! Because I'm peer tutoring the Innovate drama class with Ms. Main. SO PUMPED :D

Also, I can't believe Maya will be DONE with NBS. So crazy.
I'm so proud of you my dear. That's a big accomplishment, and you should be proud of yourself. We all love you so much and we're so excited to see what amazing things you do with dance/life.
You rock.
Keep being you. <3

no title could describe this

this is officially the last day I am ever going to wear my kilt to school.

guess what that means?

i get to let out all of the safety pins that are holding it together and let it fall into its rightful shreds.

oh, and on a side note, I also get to dress up, have my picture taken, and get that rolled up bit of paper that frees me from highschool forever...
or until i have to work on my calc course.

i love you girls with all my heart, i cannot stop thinking of you.

exams, ice cream, cupcakes, thunder storms and SUMMER!!!!

Well, I really should be studying for my math exam on Friday... since I will have ABSOLUTELY NO TIME TOMORROW!!!!
But i haven't written for a few days, so I thought I would do so now.
I had my english exam this morning.
It was actually amazing and so much fun and I wish I had them more often. I would happily trad this coming math exam for two or three other english exams. 
Cause this is not fun at all.


Katlin and I had an ice cream/random salad/smoothie post exam pow-wow today.
It was good :)
I'm SOOOO excited for the rest of the summer now! :D

I'm waiting for my cupcakes to bake.
We are having a little party of people we haven't seen for a while tomorrow... and I need to have something yummy to eat.


It's pouring out right now, and I'm typing to the sound track of rain and thunder.
I'm actually loving it :)

Well... back to studying...
WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Summer time and the living is easy

I'm practically done grade 10!!! Woot woot:D
I have my English exam to write and all but lets be serious it's English, = I don't really need to study very much :P I'm extremely happy at the moment.

I have so many plans for this next week! It's going to be so much fun:)

Ok so is it just me or has Maya been absent from any form of communication for a really, really, really long time??:S

K so we NEED to hang out asap though like really!!

Love you guys<3<3<3

feeling less panicked

Okay, I'm actually doing alright in terms of studying. I'm a little over halfway through every review question from every unit. So thats pretty decent. I should be okay for problem solving, and hopefully the multiple choice part will be easy :P

Ugh, so annoying, my dad isn't giving me credit for all the work I've put into studying. He's like "I know you aren't studying that whole time, you're on your computer." But my review is ONLINE! I AM STUDYING!! And Facebook is super slow, so I'm not on there... Its just so annoying, I've actually put SO much time in. I take school seriously, he should know that by now!

On another note, I had a nap on the trampoline and now I have a lovely tan on my back :D Yay olive skin tone!! Haha. I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't burn :) I can't wait for school to be done so I can do that every afternoon lol.

My brain is feeling pretty fried now though from all this darn studying. If only I had a few more days, there wouldn't be so much cramming... Ugh. I need to get out of the house and DO something or my head will explode!
Maybe I'll go for a run as soon as it gets a bit cooler. Or a bikeride since I ran yesterday. Hm.
Or I could actually start making cookies for my drama class like I said I would. Or my card for Mr. Anderson, since tomorrow is probably the last time I'll see him... :( So sad :( :( :(

Okay I must get out of bed. And away from my textbooks. I can feel them staring at me, temping me to open them again... STOP IT SPRING PROBLEMS I HATE YOU!
I'm seriously going insane.....

OH MY WOW

SOOO AMAZING!!!
I love my life, and I feel like I know what I want to do with my life.
I want to poor, have great friends, and be a part of independant theatre!
Like really.
I'm totally in love.

Last night I went to Toronto to see a production of A Midsummer Nights Dream, that the director of SLKT(As You Like It... if you take out all the vowels the short form is SLKT) and R+J, directed.
It was outside in an epic urban courtyard, with fountains, trees growing out of the cement, and lots of benches.

If anyone wants to go to TO(or if you have some time off...) here's the link: http://www.urbanbard.ca/home.html

It was actually amazing. They space was AWESOME! And I LOOOOVED the way the action moved around.

time to start panicking...

I forgot how HARD physics is!

Like, when you do it bit by bit, it doesn't seem so bad. But looking back... Wow. This exam is freaking me out, a lot. That course was intense, and I have to know the whole thing and put it all down on paper for three hours. I don't even know if my brain can function for three hours straight on ANYTHING, nevermind physics problems... Now I know why people say this is the hardest course in the school. I believe them now.
Also, I've got english and coaching and the dentist the day before. So I have to do everything over the next 2 days. Yay.

I'm hoping the english exam will be pretty standard, no surprises essay and I'll feel inspired that day and use wonderful big words and randomly have insightful things to say about what we've read this year. Fingers crossed haha.

The thing I really hate about english lately is how we have to write the SAME THING AS EVERYONE ELSE. And only what MY teacher thinks is important. I can never really explore what I like about the novels/movies/plays. Because there were a few characters (Kurtz, Lady Macbeth) that I REALLY liked. And I'd LOVE to write an essay on them, because I'm a big nerd and I'd actually enjoy finding out more about their role in literature. But I hardly get to touch on them because they aren't in the curiculum. It just sucks, because I'm actually motivated to learn for once, and I feel like its completely stopped by school. :(

I miss being homeschooled.
Plus, I'm missing out on the homeschool prom! :P
I mean really, it sounds like the event of the year. LOL.

I'm getting super super SUPER excited about summer though!
My friend Jen and I are planning an anti-prom night, because she and her BF broke up so she's not going to prom after all. So we're getting dressed up and going to Mongolian Grill and eating carbs while looking pretty and talking about how we hate boys haha. Yay life.
And then the next night, my friend Alex is having a party! Yay! :D With FTC people and some of his other friends. Which will also be fun :)
And THEN, Jen and Caitlin and I are having a movie night on the Saturday after that.

Plus I have to fit in you girls EVERY DAY :D :D :D

Summer seems like it's gonna have a great start!! <3

relay, HP, dance and shopping

HEYYYYY omg im so sorry for the extensive absence recently! I don't even know where the time has gone! :S It's like it was only yesterday that I was dancing in the last and partial competition of the year! Now I only have two more days of classes pluss my exam and then I'm on SUMMER HOLIDAY MODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can barely wait :D This summer is going to be epic!

I can't believe that I'll be grade eleven next year, my life is going by so quick :S

Now on to relay for life! So I have gone out to get pledges three times and on average have brought back $210 per night!!! I'm legit so happy! I feel so good doing it, like I'm finally actually making a difference. Its so weird though I think I'm addicited to taking people's money or something! Like when i start planning to head home I'm just like oh well this house is on the way so I'll just do it, and then one more and one more! It's rediculous:S It's like an addiction lol. It's honestly one of the most bizar feelings though :P But yeah, so Relay For Life is tomorrow and I'm going over to Res at 4 to help set up the tent and everything and just set up and all, and just chill a bit too :P I feel like it's going to be EPIC though. There are so many activities there that the Canadian Cancer Society has planned and everyting, I was really surprised.

Ok so is it a little sad that I basically have my life for the next three years planned out?? Well I do. #1. Work my butt off this summer and learn the advanced 2 silibus and basically be able to do all the excersizes by the fall #2. Take my advanced 2 ballet exam in the spring of grade eleven #3. Work my butt off summer before grade 12 on taking my solo seal #4. Graduate from highschool, take a year off from school, work and take ballet with my mom and train for my solo seal exam hopefully take it in the spring before i turn 19 #5. get accepted to U of T and get my undergrad then etc. etc. etc. and have a well estabolished career :D end of plan :P

I think it's pretty pro planning skills right there :)

OMG I felt so loved tonight :D
So after years and years of me wanting to do Kaya's hair for her and her saying "nooooo" and me going PLEEEAAAAASSSSSEEEE???? and her still refuesing me, tonight she was like "Savannah, will you curl my hair for grad this year??" I sware my heart melted I was like awwwww <3<3<3<3 and then she was like do you think you could do me a favour? and her friend Tia wants me to do her hair for grad too :D I felt so loved :D But yeah so I'm super pumped for it cause I'm gonna make them look adorable!!!!! Oh and Kaya wanted me to do her make up too :') <3<3<3

So I bought the cutest pair of heels for my interview for Dance Canada pageant! they're like three inch and just black and they look so cute:)

FREAKIEST THING OF MY LIFE!

:O

OMG. I have NEVER been more terrified IN MY LIFE!

So umm, basically I got freezing in my mouth for the first time, and the dentist just decides it's totally cool to JUST YANK A TOOTH FROM MY FACE!!!!
I mean wow.

Not going to lie. I totally cried.
I mean, IT WAS SO SCARY!!!!!
Wow.
Now I'll only have to go through that 2 more times at somepoint in the future.