Wednesday, April 20, 2011

the drama with drama...

The guys in my class are such drama queens. They're total divas, and think they can get whatever they want. Ugh.
So casting... My co-director and I decided today. I held my ground on who I wanted, and he agreed to it. His only condition was that we don't put up with any BS from them, and we work them HARD. Which sounds good to me. They're ready to be pushed, and that doesn't always mean they'll like it.
I'm happy to be working with M. But our lead guy.... ahhhh. I knew he'd be a challenge, and I'm ready for it. But before the play has even started, he's being a total brat.
I was hearing things about him not really liking our play, and not being really into it. He told me he was just assessing his options. So okay, fine. But honestly, if you're not into it, TELL ME. Because I'm not casting you if you're gonna drop out on me. The other guy had a stronger audition, so it would be easy to just give him the part. I had to push to get J.W., because I believe in him. But if he doesn't believe in me... :S
Then the other co-directors announced their casting, and they didn't give our lead guy a lead in that one too. Probably because they knew I wanted him :P
So J.W. is all like, can I talk to you... And he apologizes for not seeming into it, but he is and he wants to be there for me and make it good and blah blah.. But really, is he just saying that because he didn't get the other lead and now he's panicking about not having one at all.
Honestly, I kind of want to cut him and say sorry, you blew it with your attitude and not being fully committed. Because he shouldn't have just assumed he'd get BOTH leads and get to choose. In the real world, you can't be such a diva about it. You DON'T just get everything you want, and you're not always the best. No one will want to work with him if he keeps acting like such a brat.
But I do want him as my lead.
I just want him to know what he's doing is wrong. Not even because I'm mad, but because I don't want him to learn the hard way when it really matters.
I want the best for him, because I really DO believe in him.
I just wish he had a little more real faith in me.
I'm excited to be directing, and I think I know what I want now. But what I don't want, is for people to think they can push me around and that I'll give in to what THEY want. I want to stand up for myself this time, and prove that I'm not always so easy-going. And if that means they won't always like me so much, I don't know if I really care. I'm looking for RESPECT for what I can do, not people who like working with me because they think they can manipulate me.
I'm ready to stand my ground on this one.

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