Why on earth did I think I could maintain a 90 average, co-direct the senior production, run a genocide conference, do well enough on this math contest to get scholarships, start running again, AND maintain some sort of social life... Gah I'm dumb.
The whole idea of co-directing is really stressing me out, especially because I don't even have a play to direct! I don't know how to pick a good one, and I can't seem to find anything that inspires me. And I've NEVER done this before, I don't even know where to START with directing. The director is basically responsible for EVERYTHING, and I feel like the whole thing is based on what the director does. If I suck at it, I don't feel like I can take drama next year. I don't even know if I want to, really. But I'd like to have the option. I just hate that this is something that can't just be learned with hard work, it takes real TALENT. And what if I just don't have it? It's like proving myself to my class all over again... And I'm terrified.
On top of that, Save Darfur is sucking everything out of me. It's SO MUCH work. And Meagan has been great, but it's still way too much work for just the two of us. It's like adding a couple big school projects on top of everything else, plus meeting every day at lunch and almost every day after school and today on the PD day. Which is really not so bad because I like them, and it's just hanging out with friends really. But it's still a killer amount of work.
Also this weekend is Savannah's dance competition, and my friend Jaimee is coming to Cambridge for a rhythmic competition, and she lives in Ottawa so I NEVER see her. But I kinda doubt I have time for EITHER of those:(
Blahhh I'm drowningggggggg:(
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