I'm almost having second thoughts about gymnastics..
I miss just being in the gym. And being upside down. Running full speed at the vault. Pointing my toes extra hard on beam.
I miss having something that consumes my entire BEING.
Except... That's exactly what I wanted to leave behind. I ran away from it, because I was so scared that there wouldn't be anything left of me OTHER than gymnastics. I felt like gym was tearing me apart.
But now without it, all I can think about is how much I want it back.
I start craving things like just doing a handstand, or sitting in pike with overstraight legs, or presenting. I want to be that girl in a shiny gymsuit with gelled hair.
I debated what I would have to do to go back. I could do it, if I did it now.
And I know it's not worth it. I left because I didn't want that that anymore.
But I can't help thinking about how things COULD be.
...But I'm starting to remember all the things I loved about that place.
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ReplyDeleteIt's normal for you to be missing it.
It wouldn't be right if you didn't.
Remember the good things, never let those go my love.
Gym made you who you are today and you should never regret any of it.
Moving on is hard.
But I just want you to know that you've got friends who are here for you whenever.
Besides, we wouldn't be able to go on chickenwingandfries dates if you were still busy with gym ;)
Everything has two sides... don't ignore either. Just look for the one with more positives :)
I love you <3
Wow, I JUUUUUST noticed this comment, completely by accident.
ReplyDeleteI love you though <3 Even if I did get it a little late haha.
You're my favourite (shhh.. don't tell the others:P)
<3<3<3